last day of moon over buffalo....

wow..
really...
this is going to be a bittersweet day...
im gonna miss doing the show...
aaaahhhh....
shit...
well i better get the good out of all of this...
im going to make this my BEST performance yet :)

i dont know what i want....

i feel like shit...
i seriously dont know what i want...
I know what i want to do after high school
but i dont know what i want right now...
she's still in my mind...
why...
fucking hell
i despise her...
i wish i'd never met her...
fuck but that is not the least of my worries...
i dont want to say alot...
right now.
yes.
very much.

here we go again... :)

its preview number two and I'm excited...
i just want to say that i love theater and that today was a good day, except for one thing...
i started thinking about an idea that i had a while ago...
i will discuss in later blogs...
i just need to think it through...
see you on stage..

scottie doesnt know....

its 6:20
and cabaret started a while ago...
i had a talk with a friend and i ended up getting a bit depressed...
but its ok im feeling better...
ugh...

my name is howard

intermission for the first night of moon over buffalo. the audience is loving it...and its gonna get better :)

Sweeney Todd
What can I do for you today sir? A stylish trimming of the hair? Soothing skin massage. Sit sir. Sit.

Judge Turpin
You see sir a man infatued with love. Her ardent and eager slave. So fetch the pomade and pumice stone
and lend me a more seductive tone
a sprinkling perhaps of French cologne but first sir I think a shave.

Sweeney Todd
The closest I ever gave
*whistles*

Judge Turpin
In a merry mood today Mr. Todd?

Sweeney Todd
'Tis your delight sir catching fire from one man to the next.

Judge Turpin
'Tis true sir love can still inspire the blood to pound, the heart leap higher. What more

Sweeney Todd
What more?

Judge Turpin and Sweeney Todd
Can man require

Judge Turpin
Than love sir

Sweeney Todd
More than love sir

Judge Turpin
What sir?

Sweeney Todd
Women

Judge Turpin
Ah yes women

Sweeney Todd
Pretty women

Now then my friend.
Now to your purpose.
Patience. Enjoy it.
Revenge can't be taken in haste.

Judge Turpin
Make haste and if we wed you'll be commended sir

Sweeney Todd
My lord.
And who may it be said is your intended sir?

Judge Turpin
My ward.
And pretty as a rose bud

Sweeney Todd
Pretty as her mother?

Judge Turpin
Hmm? What was that?

Sweeney Todd(spoken)
Nothing sir. Nothing.
(sung)
Pretty women
Fascinating...
Sipping coffee,
Dancing...
Pretty women
Are a wonder.
Pretty women,

Sitting in the window or
Standing on the stair
Something in them chills the air.
Pretty women

Judge Turpin
Silhouetted...

Sweeney Todd
Stay within you,

Judge Turpin
Glancing...

Sweeney Todd
stay forever,

Judge Turpin
Breathing lightly...

Sweeney Todd
Pretty women,

Judge Turpin and Sweeney Todd(together and alternating)
Pretty women!

Blowing out their candles or
Combing out their hair,
Combing out their hair then they leave
Even when they leave you and vainish they somehow can still can remain there with you
Even when they leave
They still are there.
They're there
Ah! Pretty women,

Sweeney Todd
At their mirrors,

Judge Turpin
In their gardens,

Sweeney Todd
Letter-writing,

Judge Turpin
Flower-picking,

Sweeney Todd
Weather-watching.

Sweeney Todd and Judge Turpin
How they make a man sing!
Proof of heaven as you're living,
Pretty women! Sir, pretty women!
Yes pretty women,
Pretty women,
Pretty women,
Pretty women


Amazing...
i love sweeney todd
its an amazing musical...
but this song has to be my favorite...

JOHANNA:
He means to marry me Monday,
What shall I do? I'd rather die.
ANTHONY:
I have a plan
JOHANNA:
I'll swallow poison on Sunday,
That's what I'll do, I'll get some lye.
ANTHONY:
I have a plan
JOHANNA :
Oh, dear, was that a noise?
ANTHONY:
A plan
JOHANNA:
I think I heard a noise.
ANTHONY;
A plan!
JOHANNA:
It couldn't be,
He's in court,
He's in court today,
Still that was a noise,
Wasn't that a noise?
You must have heard that
ANTHONY:
Kiss me.
JOHANNA:
Oh, sir...
ANTHONY:
Ah, miss ...
JOHANNA:
Oh, sir ...
If he should marry me Monday,
What shall I do? I'll die of grief.
ANTHONY:
We fly tonight
JOHANNA:
'Tis Friday, virtually Sunday,
What can we do with time so brief?
ANTHONY:
We fly tonight ...
JOHANNA:
Behind the curtain ... quick!
ANTHONY:
Tonight ...
JOHANNA:
I think I heard a click!
ANTHONY:
Tonight!
JOHANNA:
It was agate!
It's the gate!
We don't have a gate.
Still there was a ... Wait!
There's another click!
You must have heard that ...
ANTHONY:
It's not a gate.
There's no gate,
You don't have a gate.
If you'd only listen, miss, and
ANTHONY;
Kiss me!
JOHANNA:
Tonight?
ANTHONY:
Kiss me.
JOHANNA:
You mean tonight?
ANTHONY:
The plan is made.
JOHANNA:
Oh, sir!
ANTHONY;
So kiss me.
JOHANNA:
I feel a fright.
ANTHONY:
Be not afraid.
JOHANNA:
Sir, I did
Love you even as I
Saw you, even as it
Did not matter that I
Did not know your name.
ANTHONY:
Tonight I'll
Steal
You,
JOHANNA,
I'll steal you ...
ANTHONY:
It's me you'll marry on Monday,
That's what you'll do!
JOHANNA:
And gladly, sir.
ANTHONY:
St. Dunstan's, noon.
JOHANNA:
I knew I'd be with you one day,
Even not knowing who you were.
I feared you'd never come,
That you'd been called away,
That you'd been killed,
Had the plague,
Were in debtor's jail,
Trampled by a horse,
Gone to sea again,
Arrested by the ...
JOHANNA:
Kiss me!
ANTHONY:
Of course.
JOHANNA:
Quickly!
ANTHONY:
Ah, miss,
Marry me, marry me, miss,
Oh, marry me Monday!
Favor me, favor me
With your hand.
Promise,
Marry me, marry me, please,
Oh, marry me Monday ...
ANTHONY:
You're sure?
JOHANNA:
Kiss me!
ANTHONY:
I shall!
JOHANNA:
Kiss me!
Oh, sir ...

its a very beautiful song... :)
that is all..

I have changed the name of my blog..

to something more... suitable.
im very happy with it.
so...
today was good.
except for her presence...
she's unnecessary... someone should dispose of her...
yeeeeahhh!!!!!!
bitchhhh.....
i need some of that good stuff that'll make me feel good

the other night...

the name of canelita came into my mind...
and she was not nice

cue to cue

your presence is not desired here.
leave now woman before I do something i might regret.
your beauty is not wanted here
please do me the favor to leave.

i need you sweet demoness
you who numbs me of all the pain.
you who makes me forget.

you...
the one that nearly drove me into madness
dressed in white...
when your soul is pitch black....
you...
the one that lied...
the one that swore...
you have no right to look me in the eye...

11th hour

The hour of wreckoning draws near
Judgment day is here and gone
Sweetly she draws me into her arms
A liquid embrace to chase the day way.
Sedate Numb Deaf and Dumb
Stumbling into solitude.
A clouded judgment day is fueled.
Take me under your black wings
Mark my words and remember me.
So sweetly she shucks away at my time
So sweetly she draws me nigh
Closer and closer towards never ending sleep
Spin the bottle
Kiss only the bottle.
The dark mistress of many, beholden to none
Slips a ring of needles around your arm in an engagement
Eternal engagement
Never consummated.
Take me under your black wings
Mark my words and remember me.
Destroyer of senses.
So take as needed for the pain
Another gray morning dawns across an ashen sky.
My sweet demoness beckons me
Ever again and again and again and again.
The dark mistress of many, beholden to none
My sweet demoness beckons me
Ever again and again and again and again and again.
Take me under your black wings.
Jacked up on the taste of self-destruction

I love this fucking song, its so beautiful.
Its the best song in the album.
it just makes me feel good. :)
Oh i also got the panda cd i was waiting for.
it came early so im happy :D



its cue to cue today, and this day is always long.
...
yep i should have brought my guitar or something...
but its ok i have blogger and my ipod and people!!!!
yaaaay!!!
......
i should have brought my guitar...
this new panda cd is sounding good, i love it.
its just inspiring me because the vocalist (pepe) left mexico for months and he started writing the lyrics and the guitar, and he then sent the recordings to the other band members.
hahahahahaha
its fun to have a conversation about liquor hahahahahahhahaha
talking about tequila and having fun with drunk friends...thats good :)